Upset

i didn't sleep well last nite... couldn't sleep properly cos the heart and mind keep thinking...
today like not good day cos alot of negative air
i dunknw.. jus feel v irritated...
i wan to forget and be happy.

actually they wanna go see cousin's newborn baby later..
but ma sort of appear unwilling to readjust the timing...
then fine.. they go ahead then...

goin to dee's hse later for Hari Raya Lunch
Yah.. today is Hari Raya Puasa and Children's Day
but i dun have the mood.. the happy mood...
i dunknw wat is it goin to be like later... sigh

mayb i am in some wrong yesterday
but i dun feel is totally my fault
he is at fault too
i mean why does he have to raise his tone
and say tat i was the one who raise my tone first
and that i offended him
if he is so easily offended
and he said that i get angry so easily?
i wasn't even angry in the first place till the raised tone

why do i have to make myself so upset
when i call to ask if he was still at work
he said he did send me an sms
but i didnt get any sms at all

and if he doesnt see me responding..
i mean he could have just give me a ring
cos usually he will call when he is getting home on the transport
but he didnt... or he forgot.. or mayb it didnt reali matter

it's jus a small thing yet he can get so offended so easily
i do not understand
so is it reali me trying to find fault?
the call only lasted 1min 35sec

i think i can only BLAME the STUPID SMS
stupid phone provider
for not being ABLE TO SEND the SMS to me

mayb i have to learn not to be so concern
then i wouldnt have more issues of "finding fault" with him