Still on it

we always have sort of "discussions" done, but it's always end up sad and depressing or maybe there is no conclusion to it. i dun know how to feel sometimes. There is always confusion mixed inside. feelings are the hardest thing to understand. if i can.. maybe i dun wan to be in love from the start. but i already step into this boat.... it rocks too much at times... and almost fell out of it but i wanna hold tightly on to it. cos im still in love with the owner of the boat.